IGNITE.

4:25 PM

well.. fio & i are poets.

fio:

男人正在买香烟
女人正准备出门

他打了一通电话找她

喂？
是我。还好吧？
哦，是你．．．我还好。
我正赶去赴约。
我也是。

挂了电话，却挂不断思念
才发现，其实自己过得并不好

男人买错了香烟
女人穿错了高跟鞋

syl:

分开了。感觉就像
湿透的香烟，断了跟的鞋。

那想起的时候。。
哈哈。
买错了香烟，穿错了鞋。

有缘回到你怀里？
那就一定有如
烟瘾的解放，新鞋子的漂亮。

lalala.

2:21 AM

listening to: mono - life in mono

mixed feelings..
yea he's with the girl already.
one week after breakup.
he said he would be single.
now when i really think of it, it's rather funny.
he said that he dun love her.
and he still loves me.
ouch. lies lies lies lies lies..

well. it's still painful for me thou'
but thankfully. im not living in false hopes anymore.
i wun like 'smile like a moron' when i receive
his gd nite msg after i'd sent him a gazillion msg-es now.
it's retribution for me.
and probably it's going after him soon.
guys.. help me along the way ya?
it's tough to get up from the very very bad fall.

now i dun really look forward to 2008.
i dun want to grow old fast.
yea.
aiya fucked up.

tea and cigarettes.
protect- and- love- myself campaign begins.
thx master acnes koh for giving me a brain squeeze.

2:00 AM

listening to: jiang mei qi - di yi bai ling yi ge da an

trying to keep myself occupied...
trimmed my hair..do my nails..
clean my room..watch tv..
yea have to move on.
checked out fees and requirements to la salle.
yup. and it's time to do up my portfolio.
tried to do some drawings..
it's dark.
duno..i dun like it. *into the bin*

went for dinner and rotting session
with my darling hpys.
it's always better than to stay home and hallucinate.
kind of accepting the fact gradually..
as long as i dun ever fall sick i will be fine i guess.
being sick = more hallucination.
but i'm still here waiting.
;)

nv post a pic of us before.
haa liyin & me.

me and the lovely master koh.

grabbed from su.. nice pic aye'

haaa grab grab grab!
sometimes i really have no idea
what he's trying to do..

2008 pls arrive faster.
love u.

10:56 PM

listening to: jay chou - wa jie

barely making it to granny's house for dinner
running a fever and panting like mad.
got the kids honey stix.
not all in 'pink lemonade' but half of it in
'black berry'..
memories..oh memories..

well.. they tried both but end up snatching all
the 'black berry' ones.
they made me promise to get them thousands
of 'black berry' honey stix for them..silly
if only there are thousands of you around.
i don't wanna go to the doc's.
you are always with me when im there..
but i will just be a good girl and drink more
water like u've told me to.

where are you?
what's on your mind?
missing u rather badly.

4:10 PM

back to watching movies alone ;)
2 tickets. empty on my right.

3:45 PM

listening to: pussycat dolls - you don't see me

yesterday's jermaine's 1st b'day.
brought the kids out for macdonald's
and arcade..
they're so wonderful and i can't really share
it with u like i always do.
met up my hpys at marina sq and went esplanade.
asthma and pain in the stomach was too much
for me to bear and i left the place.

i couldn't find my inhaler.
my mum ignores me and continued slping.
u are no longer the same old u.
i hid under the blanket and pillows.
yes, dun worry im not gone yet.

This is the place where I sit
This is the part whereI love you too much
Is this as hard as it gets?
'Cause I'm getting tired
Of pretending I'm tough
I'm here if you want me
I'm yours, you can hold me
I'm empty and taken and
Tumbling and breakin'
'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

I dream of worlds
Where you'd understand
And I dream a
Million sleepless nights
I dream of fire when
You're touching my hand
But it twists into smoke
When I turn on the light
I'm speechless and faded
It's too complicated
Is this how the book ends,
Nothing but good friends?

'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would

This is the place in my heart
This is the place whereI'm falling apart
Isn't this just where we met?
And is this the last chance
That I'll ever get?
I wish I was lonely
Instead of just only
Crystal and see-through
And not enough to you

'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could.

if only u could tell me it's just a bad dream.

1:25 AM

listening to: eagles - the heart of the matter

went out with fio
watched nanny mcphee.
it's rather nice but i wanna cry..
too many couples in sight, everywhere
perhaps i would just stay at home.

I don't listen hard
I don't pay attention to the distance
That you're running or to
Anyone anywhere
I don't understand if you really care
I'm only hearing negative, no no no- bad

So I turned the radio on, turned the radio up
And this woman was singing my song
Lovers in love and the other's run away
Lover is crying 'cause the other won't stay

And some of us hover when we weep
for the other who was dying
Since the day they were born well
Well, this is not thatI think that I'm throwing but I'm thrown

And I thought I'd live forever
But now I'm not so sure
You try to tell me that I'm clever
But that won't take me anyhow
Or anywhere with you

And you said that I was naive
But I thought that I was strong
I thought, "hey, I can leave, I can leave"
But now I know that I was wrong
Cause I missed you
Yeah, I missed you

just don't shut me off. pls don't.

2:39 AM

listening to: lisa loeb - stay i missed you

went out with my darling hpys.
hated it when my eyes gets swollen and all..
took a long long time before i can finally get
out of my house looking pweety again ;)

the weather is damn warm and humid..
if only the weather here is similar to hk's
went rotting at cafes..
went for retail theraphy....
it did help a little but it burns my pocket

well, pheng is so sweet as to buy
one whole bag of goodies for me
to last me for 7 days. love u.
love all my hpys.
meeting darling fiona tml... so glad to have all
of u...

still missing you.

4:24 AM

listening to: jay chou & lara - shan hu hai

yeah this is our song.
i really hope that this ISN'T our song.
many things happened during this short week.
went to hk (last min decision)
had some fun but flew back with a broken heart.
and today we actually met up to talk it out.
we did.
and i got home not with a broken heart
but with a totally shattered heart + 2 wonderful friends.
thanks wm n su for being there for me
and the other HPYs who msged me all this while
dun worry i'll be fine.

thanks for all the memories.
i just can't get u off my mind like i've always told u.

1:21 AM

listening to: stefanie sun - yi yang de xia tian

my mummy's getting more 'mummylicious'.
rofl.
asked me to help get her a cheap and gd mp3 player.
i'm still grumbling then..
in the end the player's for me.
how sweet.
she even suggest me to get new specs
and she's paying for it. haa
she's a changed mum..
so not her..

but i kinda like this one better.
;)
oh.. patricia i miss u!!!!!

yeah~ tml going to ice skate!!

12:25 AM

listening to: silje nergaard - be still my heart

I felt not the faintest flutter
When you brushed my cheek as you passed
Nor will I willingly clutter
My life with these things that don't last

sorted out everything on msn earlier..
whew.
sleeping at home is a crime.
tml going over to his place to watch dvds
whatever will be, will be... pray hard.

silly flash created by some guy..

;) haix..dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb!
i succumbed to this stupid thing.. argh~

hope the many tomorrows ahead will be better
for all of us.
peace.

12:11 AM

listening to: scissor sisters - mary

yeah! today i went to the zoo zoo zoO!

'lao mu da ren' is kind enough to give me $50
for my lil' trip to the zoo ;)
had mac big breakfast with the lovely HPYs
and off we go to da zoo~~
well loads of pics today :)))))